Had this nightmare yesterday that I was rooming with two guys in my program (yeah I’d never do that in real life.) Apparently the house we lived in was haunted and the elevator would sometimes trap you inside, and the elevator door would disappear.

But that was not what scared me in the dream.

It was the fact that the guys in my house (who are two guys in my program in school), didn’t like me. Instead of confronting me they went to a bunch of Muslim girls and told them that. And then everyone thought I was crazy.

This nightmare really affected me because in undergrad, this guy who hated me spread this rumor that I’m crazy/mentally-ill, which resulted in me having no friends. He took away all of my friends and my life in undergrad was complete hell. To see people publicly hate me or even fear me, without anyone confronting me about it was hell.

Eventually, I confronted the two guys in my dream and they pretty much admitted to hating me. They pretty much asked me to leave. And I cried.

And now I’m convinced this dream is telling me something real about our relationship in real life. I rarely dream about people outside of my immediate family, so now I’m scared. I wanted these people to be my friends, and while I was choking back and telling them this in tears (in the dream), they didn’t give a damn. How do I confront these people in real life? Since I only met these people a few months ago when school started, but my program is really small so everyone knows everyone else?